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And I am new to this forum. I feel like I have to provide a disclaimer, though. I don't have a diagnosis... and I might argue it doesn't matter that I don't? Except I've been coming around on that stance lately. What does it matter if a doctor tells me something? They can't DO anything. Except maybe they can. Maybe it'll be one more little thing that makes me feel better about myself. Maybe it'll help me not feel guilty that, "No, I don't want to go to the bar?! That place is nightmare fuel, and yes I know that's what a lot of people do, but... nah... I don't like it and that's fine". Like social interaction is a lot for me. I generally do a bang-up (what does "bang-up" mean?) job of it. Like, people tell me I'm easy to talk to and I'm usually well liked, sometimes they say I'm a weirdo, but that's fine. I am. It's just that it takes so much WORK. None of it's natural. I once saw someone on the internet saying they were "running human.exe" all the time... and that actually resonated with me a lot. Using up all my processing power to get through a situation I don't even want to be in in the first place. I'm going on a rant, now. I'm venting. I do text walls way too often. But I have been dwelling on seeking a professional opinion for a long time, and I think I've settled on the idea that I should. And now you know I'm focusing on social anxiety because it's right up front in my mind because... it makes me anxious so I think about it a lot. I'm stressing out right now, just anonymously writing on a forum... But there's all sorts of other stuff. I'm an adult man covering my ears and rocking side to side (more like I'm a swimming fish but w e) because I have to wait in a waiting room with fluorescent lights? When I was a kid they kept testing my hearing bc I couldn't understand what my teachers were saying. Ears work fine. He just doesn't pay attention? No, I just can't make out the words sometimes, or it just take me a few seconds. It just goes on... and the more I read, the more it makes sense. If you read all this, then +100 gold stars for you. Moving on.

I love me some sci-fi. Rockets, vehicles, machines, devices. I like robots and AI's. They're a lot of the time portrayed as the villains, but I like to think of them as... like really good dudes. Potentially, anyways. They could just as likely be smarter-faster-stronger-nicer-better as smarter-faster-stronger-KILLALLHUMANS-better. I love the idea of life on another world. I have DREAMS about life on other planets and they are amazing.

Video games. Always. Kerbal Space Program, Rimworld, Binding of Isaac. Right now I'm into Battletech, but with the RougeTech mod.

TV? Yeah. Ahh! Real Monsters. Just that. I'm joking, but only partially. Sometimes it's just time to watch every episode of Ahh! Real Monsters and that's it. Or like... Honestly? SpongeBob SquarePants. Every episode, except some of the specials, nonstop every night. Shrek. Just the original. I like the old sci-fi animes. Cowboy Bebop, Ergo Proxy, Ghost in the Shell type stuff. Naruto... of course.

This one might be important for someone. You don't know me. I'm a stranger on the internet. Whether that's a good thing or a bad thing is up to you to decide, but either way, as a person... you have an intrinsic value. You are valuable and that means I want you to be at least ok. The only way I can do that, being a stranger on the internet, is to read the words you type and maybe type some back. Right? I know I'm being too much right now, but dead serious, sometimes someone might just want to vent or whatever, and if that's you, I'm here for it. Just saying.

Welcome to WP! I hope you frequent it.

I feel like I have to provide a disclaimer, though. I don't have a diagnosis... and I might argue it doesn't matter that I don't? Except I've been coming around on that stance lately. What does it matter if a doctor tells me something? They can't DO anything. Except maybe they can. Maybe it'll be one more little thing that makes me feel better about myself. Maybe it'll help me not feel guilty that, "No, I don't want to go to the bar?! That place is nightmare fuel, and yes I know that's what a lot of people do, but... nah... I don't like it and that's fine". Like social interaction is a lot for me. I generally do a bang-up (what does "bang-up" mean?) job of it. Like, people tell me I'm easy to talk to and I'm usually well liked, sometimes they say I'm a weirdo, but that's fine. I am. It's just that it takes so much WORK. None of it's natural. I once saw someone on the internet saying they were "running human.exe" all the time... and that actually resonated with me a lot. Using up all my processing power to get through a situation I don't even want to be in in the first place. I'm going on a rant, now. I'm venting. I do text walls way too often. But I have been dwelling on seeking a professional opinion for a long time, and I think I've settled on the idea that I should. And now you know I'm focusing on social anxiety because it's right up front in my mind because... it makes me anxious so I think about it a lot. I'm stressing out right now, just anonymously writing on a forum... But there's all sorts of other stuff. I'm an adult man covering my ears and rocking side to side (more like I'm a swimming fish but w e) because I have to wait in a waiting room with fluorescent lights? When I was a kid they kept testing my hearing bc I couldn't understand what my teachers were saying. Ears work fine. He just doesn't pay attention? No, I just can't make out the words sometimes, or it just take me a few seconds. It just goes on... and the more I read, the more it makes sense. If you read all this, then +100 gold stars for you. Moving on.

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Welcome to WrongPlanet! Glad to have you with us!