Feeling like I am stuck in the past

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I am 54 years old and feel like I am stuck as a 13 year old.

I feel like the same person emotionally and even physically. Only taller.

I know this isn't that uncommon being on the spectrum but my case seems extreme.

There are times that I don't feel a day older than 21. I feel the same way that I did back than. I have the same type of energy and the same emotional maturity that you would expect from a 21 year old. My colours have changed over the past 30 years, but that's it.

Definitely a spectrum thing. It is like we don't evolve emotionally or mature like others.

The same as myself in this respect - but then again, as a person in my early teens, I was mentally a normal adult person like any other - I behaved, thought and expressed my thoughts verbally like a normal adult woman, as if I was one generation older than I really was. Now the fact that I behave, think etc. like a grown up is perfectly normal so it's not like i'm going to impress someone with that like I did almost three decades ago.

Yeah, I'm going through much the same as you folks and my thread indicates such. I feel stunted.

I don't feel any different either, I listen to the music I grew up with, the only difference is I've got arthritis now and I'm having Falls.

So recently I have felt like how I did back in 2016. I am happy about it though because I have got my best traits back, I had something happen to me in late 2017 and 2018 and it is like my real personality was dormant until now so for me 2026 is the new 2016, i've been like a zombie girl for nearly past 10 years

From age 18 into my 30s I certainly felt this big time. And it's certainly still true with my interests, but I have tried to "move on" otherwise. If I really can, I don't know.

I live in the past a lot and I know I shouldn't. Stupid things I did or said many years ago I still remember vividly which leads to painful flashbacks.

Many years ago I had a toxic friendship and even over a decade late I still dwell on it, I still have not moved past it. I knew things had gotten bad but oblivious me did not see the signs until I was away from this person for awhile. I feel like such a fool still.