Major Meltdown today.

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I am so sick and tired of people telling me that there's nothing wrong with me. You just have to stop being so insensitive. You're just depressed. They don't understand that I have a big f'ing hole! I'm wired differently! I come here and I feel at home. It's like all of these people here are telling MY story with their own. It's ridiculous how identical they are! I've lived this life, I know what I have. Every time I read a message here from someone the hair stands up on the back of my neck cause I have had the same exact experience! Now my doc just wants to stuff meds down my throat! You're just depressed take this Welbutrin, he says. Are depressed people sensitive to sound and lights? Do they all have narrow obsessed interests? Do they have stimms? It seems like the only way the friends I do have will understand is if I have a diagnosis. I am so f*****g SICK of hearing "All you have to do is change your behavior!" You know, f**k YOU! I sat and cried for what seemed like hours. I'm sorry, I just don't know what to do anymore!

Then after all that, my freaking snow blower wouldn't start. *shakes he head in disbelief*

-Craig

Yup, been through a lot of what you say, except I never had a snow blower, but I had a job for a while where I had to use one and yup, the damn thing wouldn't start when I needed it to.

You're probably in no mood for me to giggle at something but I read it and was reminded so much of it. I sure as hell don't giggle when they pull this s**t on me, but some how over time I just shake my head and laugh at it.... sometimes. I mean what else can I do.

"Just go outside and be with people and you'll feel better."

s**t doesn't seem so damn funny after I wrote it. It's like, what part of my (insert a whole lot of what you said) story didn't they f*****g hear? You want to go throttle someone with me?

What did I do? I tell them what I want, they don't tell me. I took control, they don't have a clue what is going on and I have a hard time getting it across, apparently. They advise, I listen and then I make the choices. For me it isn't being an Aspie, as much as it is the things that have decided they want to hitch a ride. For those I do need a little help and it isn't always a pleasant road finding the things that work. No it is not, but worth it when I do.

As to friends, they either take me as what and who I am, with or with out some label, or screw em. I've got better things to obsess over.


Now, here is the best advice you'll ever get out of me when it comes to snow..always remember this. The lord giveth and the lord will taketh away. Wait for spring.
Oh wait I'll bet you're going to use getting your car out as some kind of excuse. Excuses won't work with me, I'm a professional procrastinator. When getting car out of snow filled driveway, start said car and move the shift lever into the gear called "ramming speed".

Yeah there's a lot of f*cktarded doctors, try not to let them get to you.