Need to vent...

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Ok just need to vent and rant at the world for a few so feel free to ignore me/this post/the world/whatever else you may want.

1 - guy at work exploded at me again a couple weeks back and this time my boss got invovled. he still refuses to apologize and acts like it's my fault that he threatened me. I used to love coming to work as I like my job (even if I'm underpaid and in a position well below my ability) but now just getting up causes all sorts of stress and coming to work is hell. There are times since his latest assualt that I've really wanted to be back in the wild west so I could challenge him in the city street and put a bullet in his head. I spent many an evening sitting at home banging my head against the wall. (literally.. don't ask it's something I do ok?)

2 - so I'm watching a movie last eve... well not really more like it was on and I was stuck inside my head... well to get to the point... I figured out... I really dislike where I am as a person now... when I was younger it didn't matter... I was happy being me... blissfully unaware of my surroundings and living in my own little world but I've grown up... yes it's taken me 37 years to reach where most NTs get by age 12... sue me... and I realize Im in a perfect storm of suckitude... smart enough to know what is wrong and what would need to be done to fix it but too screwed up to actually be able to fix it if it's even possible. Short form... I'm just too damn lonely...


thanks for reading/ignoring whatever... now back to your regularly scheduled fun.

I dislike several things about my life. In fact, I'm sort of stuck in a rut at this particular point in my life. But...I truly like where I am today as a person, in terms of what I've learned in life. I have more experience in life than I did when I was younger. Plus, I've been exposed to certain things, and have had unique experiences, all of which have enabled me to gain valuable knowledge. So, despite the "suckitude" of my present life, I like the knowledgeable and complex person that I am today.

damn...i was supposed to be grown up at 12? s**t...i thought i was doing good at thinking i had things figured out at 20...but then when i hit 30, i realized i hadn't. and now, a few years later, i'm realizing, not unlike yourself, that i'm a grown up, and don't really want to be. (not that i want to be a child...i just don't want to be 'old'...lol) i've been unemployed longer in the last year than i have since i started working at age 12, and i really have no idea what to do with my life now. well, i mean, i know what i need to do, get a job and all, but...i think i'm there in that 'perfect storm' with ya. we should compare notes sometime...

Sounds like it's time for a change. And that is always uncomfortable, no matter who you are. Good luck.

OK I ignored most of ya post LOL



but agree ranting is great lol

get the feelings out there LOL.. sorry ididnt read lol guess i was... didnt because u said... i didnt have to yay lol..

so made my mind up LOL

hahahaha... that is great. glad you had fun.