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19 Feb 2008, 9:48 pm

I'm just trying to understand what it is I'm feeling. Some sort of emptiness, and some sort of romantic (though not necessarily pertaining to relationships) longing as I stare out at the snow that glides past the street lamp. I feel like if this moment were a scene in a movie, it would be artistic; beautiful.
But it's only me and this confused feeling.
What I do understand:
I feel lonely, but at the same time I don't really want to deal with people. There are a few special people, but most of them don't talk to me much anymore.
I feel regretful. I'm thinking about things I've said or written or posted. And I'm wondering if people ignore me because of these things I've said, which is probably irrational.



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19 Feb 2008, 9:52 pm

Your forlorn.


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19 Feb 2008, 10:35 pm

TheMidnightJudge wrote:
I'm just trying to understand what it is I'm feeling. Some sort of emptiness, and some sort of romantic (though not necessarily pertaining to relationships) longing as I stare out at the snow that glides past the street lamp. I feel like if this moment were a scene in a movie, it would be artistic; beautiful.
But it's only me and this confused feeling.
What I do understand:
I feel lonely, but at the same time I don't really want to deal with people. There are a few special people, but most of them don't talk to me much anymore.
I feel regretful. I'm thinking about things I've said or written or posted. And I'm wondering if people ignore me because of these things I've said, which is probably irrational...


You know, that's actually how I feel...
And it's written beautifully, by the way...



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19 Feb 2008, 10:55 pm

I have this feeling as well. I recently got rejected romantically by a very good friend, and just a couple of days ago, I got very upset and snapped and said things that I now deeply regret.

I try to make friends, but I feel like I connect with very few people.


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19 Feb 2008, 11:09 pm

Tim_Tex wrote:
I try to make friends, but I feel like I connect with very few people.


Yeah -- I'm the same way. I feel like people just don't "get" me -- if that makes any sense.
I, too, feel some sort of empty feeling. Like there's something missing. Just don't know what it is.



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19 Feb 2008, 11:34 pm

Denali wrote:
Tim_Tex wrote:
I try to make friends, but I feel like I connect with very few people.


Yeah -- I'm the same way. I feel like people just don't "get" me -- if that makes any sense.
I, too, feel some sort of empty feeling. Like there's something missing. Just don't know what it is.


Same here. Living in a semi-rural area doesn't improve thing much either.


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20 Feb 2008, 12:43 am

Trust me, I'm 'emotion stupid,' but what you related sounds indicative of

ennui + existential angst

I think, but don't ask me. Strangely, I seemingly have this experience too, but I'm not sure it's an emotion. I think it's the same as what Linus felt at Hallowen when the exalted Great Pumpkin did not come. Not just disappointment, but a profound.....emptiness? Unsure.


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21 Feb 2008, 2:15 am

Melencoly?

Its a good time to feel it. I hate feeling it when the suns shining and everyones out. This weather lends itself to it.



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21 Feb 2008, 10:17 pm

Thanks guys



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21 Feb 2008, 10:34 pm

jock itch




























wait what?



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21 Feb 2008, 10:36 pm

Kalister1 wrote:
jock itch

























wait what?


According to a 6th grade classmate, that's how Freddy Krueger died.


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21 Feb 2008, 10:36 pm

Freddy died from lice that got too big and ate him.



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22 Feb 2008, 12:09 am

Lets play more, 'Name that Feeling."

Anyone? This very evening I suffered from serious communication PAIN - do not engage a NT in writing if question posed. They do not read and insted become deeply irreversibly confused. Then, on the way home...my ensuing meltdown.

Is this...misinterpretation? Name that Feeling. Maybe PAIN? Specifiy.

Mental Scream......


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24 Feb 2008, 12:26 am

LabPet wrote:
Lets play more, 'Name that Feeling."

Anyone? This very evening I suffered from serious communication PAIN - do not engage a NT in writing if question posed. They do not read and insted become deeply irreversibly confused. Then, on the way home...my ensuing meltdown.

Is this...misinterpretation? Name that Feeling. Maybe PAIN? Specifiy.

Mental Scream......


clarify



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24 Feb 2008, 4:26 pm

re: Clarify.

That is, in fact, the dilemma. I cannot. I have a deficit, due to my condition (HFA), which makes identifying emotions, or potential emotions, problematic. This is why I asked you/they/others. If I knew, I would not ask.

I stated precisely; communication misread. Such that signal to noise is off! I try to communicate, then neurotypical miscontrues &/or misinterprets. I am succinct. Neurotypicals often overlap their emotions with thought, which confounds meaning. Then, Lab Pet becomes perplexed. I am misunderstood. Ensuing meltdown later.

In sum, I have no verbal reproach. I hate that feeling! Name that feeling/emotion.

I hope that helped clarify! - I tried TheMidnightJudge.


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