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Ladarzak
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18 Mar 2009, 10:51 am

I'll take that phrase to describe where I'm at: my wounded animal time. It's so hard living in a world that is designed by people, for other people. Or hermit time, me time. I do need that. Been feeling very discouraged and more. So frustrated with my life because of what it's been. So frustrated with myself and all I have missed out on because I am clueless about people, and they about me.

There is no place for me here and I should not have been born. Literally. I mean it's only extreme medical intervention that allowed me to be born. Sure, I have some things to be grateful for, but today I cannot live in the moment. I feel the weight of the past on me. I suppose sometimes doing nothing is the best I can do.



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18 Mar 2009, 5:21 pm

Note to self: threadkillers should not start threads.

Apparently not even anyone here can relate to what I've said, despite 48 people already having read it. Bizarre.

I belong nowhere.



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18 Mar 2009, 6:00 pm

No, that's 48 people who didn't know anything to say to make you feel better. I'm not sure I can say anything either except I understand how badly you feel.

I hope someone who is better with words can come on here and make everything alright.



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18 Mar 2009, 6:22 pm

I feel like that sometimes too. The only thing that works for me is calling it a night and having a good rest, then trying to start anew in the morning, making sure I do something nice for me that day. I too deal with a world that wasn't made for someone like me.


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18 Mar 2009, 6:24 pm

I feel like that sometimes too. The only thing that works for me is calling it a night and having a good rest, then trying to start anew in the morning, making sure I do something nice for me that day. I too deal with a world that wasn't made for someone like me.


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18 Mar 2009, 6:24 pm

I feel like that sometimes too. The only thing that works for me is calling it a night and having a good rest, then trying to start anew in the morning, making sure I do something nice for me that day. I too deal with a world that wasn't made for someone like me.


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18 Mar 2009, 6:42 pm

Ladarzak, I think everyone with Asperger's has felt the way you feel now. That doesn't make your pain hurt any less but realize you're not alone. Please PM if you want and let me know exactly what's going on with you now. Why has the weight of the past come back to reclaim you?