Hello everybody,
I'm Filip and I'm from Belgium. English is not my native tongue, so sorry if I make mistakes.
I'm 26 now, male and I have been diagnosed with Asperger's almost a year ago. Pretty late, what has his advantages and negative sides. Positive because I haven't been labelled and so I have been able to go to school and to found a job as accountant. Negative because I had met with a lot of problems with social contacts, was a little bit of a trouble child who had his mood swings, fears and angers, ... and there has never been given a reason why I was who I was. If I had been diagnosed in childhood I could have more guidance.
I come from a family with 4 other brothers and 2 sisters. My youngest brother is also diagnosed with autism. Since I had my diagnose, I suspect my father to be Aspie also and also my other brother has signs of Asperger's. It's a family matter I think. Although I come from a large family I don't really connect with my family. I have always felt like an outsider and that have became worse as the years gone by.
It's been almost a year I have been diagnosed but I have not yet fully accepted it. I still have so many questions and I don't know how to handle with it. It's hard when you have tried so hard to be normal and then have to hear that you won't be "normal". For the moment I don't know what to do with it and what effect it has on my future life. I hope to find some answers here in the story of others.
Now, I don't want to be too negative and depressed. I have found a job as accountant and I really like the work I do. Not so much the contacts with clients, but the contact with my colleagues is pretty good. I don't think they have any suspicion that I have Asperger's. So I can hide my autism very well, but it asks a lot of my energy. Outside my work, I don't have any friends but I entertain myself with music, books and television series.
I hope that I have give you a good introduction of myself and I hope I can fit in here.
Greetings
16 Mar 2009, 1:39 pm
