LifesNotFair wrote:
I've learnt that I can't get away with pretending I'm something that I'm not.
I hope that you've not became what some people might made you falsely believe you are... beaten down on yourself, while they boost themselves up another person's expense. Because of Asperger syndrome (and I was unaware I had it all my life) people treated me like an outcast, as though I had something wrong with me. I was the one who would speak the truth, even at risk of offending others. Naturally they didn't like me (I see this now). That (their resentment) was projected on me in a terrible way, and every time I looked in the mirror ... I was searching "what is wrong with me?" People had mixed opinion, but we tend to believe the bad things... and searching for anything that might explain why people treat us badly. But it is their negative projection, and not even that we're bad people or perhaps hadn't done anything "wrong"... but had really ticked off some people for doing the
right thing. I think most Aspies intend to do the right thing.
LifesNotFair wrote:
I hate my nose and the many and terrible faux pas I committed, completely unwittingly, in my youth which now reappear in terrible insightful flashback form at frequent intervals of every waking minute. I wish they wouldn't.
Sounds like you've been oversensitized to things... and there's probably nothing wrong with your nose. Do you perceive yourself to be a perfectionist?
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