I'm not really big on entrances. Never have been. So I'll keep it short and sweet.
I'm a seventeen year-old, female, home-schooler who is trying to accept the fact that I'm not entirely the person I have been perceived as. I've never been very "open", but due to the fact that this is all virtual and healing requires honesty, I am not doing so great. Major issues right now are self-infliction, hypersensitive (I'm not really sure that's what you call it), isolation, passivity in social situations involving more than one person, spacing, weird habits, problems with physical contact, and daydreaming to the point I can't remember where I am and what's real. These are followed by little things that I've realized just aren't normal of appropriate in the world that surrounds me. The worst of all things - people notice.
I guess my point is, I'm here for a reason. I want to know what the h-e-double toothpick is wrong with me. I've been like this ever since I could remember, but all of a sudden its crashing down on me. I'm affected intellectually, personally, and socially by whatever this is and I'm a victim of my own body and mind. The last few months I've been searching for a diagnoses of sorts. The voices on these forums, you, have struck a chord in me. I relate on a level I have never understood before. I think I've found what it is. So now what? Heh.
Well on the bright side I have talents and hobbies and all the other accessories that are included in humanity. :] Writing is that one thing that I truly could live off. I get so wrapped up into my current projects you'd wonder if I actually existed when you took my pen and paper away. I am really into photography and actually hold the current of photographer's assistant. Fun job, but my strength is in the editing and manipulating. I've done a lot of art and logo designing in the last three years, although I haven't been working on anything lately. Medium of choice: India ink sets and Crayola. I also have a thing for anatomy. The human brain, its levels of organization, and its functionality amazes me. I've done countless studies on, hah, our brains. This was not as short as I intended this to be. It happens. So get to know me, talk to me, help me, support me, pray for me, or whatever it is you think is moral and just. In turn I'll try my best to return the gift within our virtual friendship. :]
And call me Grey
06 Jun 2011, 11:45 pm
