CockneyRebel wrote:
My outreach worker thinks that I should be able to leave my cloth helmet that I dyed a bright metallic blue and painted a peace-sign onto at home. Every time I leave my comfort object at home, I feel jaded, forlorn and downright cynical and miserable. I don't feel like myself without wearing my comfort object. I feel disassociated, jaded and like my insides are dried out when I don't have it with me. I'm not very easy to get along with if I leave my favourite hat at home. The books on the Holocaust aren't helping much, either. All for the crime of liking both Germany and the 1940s, I have to fit in and be miserable just to make my outreach worker happy. There are some moments I think that I'll get my free will back if I die and go to Heaven and that's the only way I will get it back. What should I do? Thank God, we're not together every waking hour of every waking day.
I mean I could see some reasons they may suggest leaving it at home, like maybe it isn't very stylish. But like if it's what makes you feel comfortable to go out...seems counterproductive they'd tell you to leave it at home. LIke it doesn't harm anyone if you wear the helmet.
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