winalot wrote:
Hi> If you have ever thought about, or wondered about people who thr or do commit suicide, here is the truth. lots of typing errors.
1. The object is to suceede. When you try, you have to opponets to thry to stop you,. One, is a second party interfearence. ie. someone who will try stop you.
2. Your self defense mechinisimas trying to stop you. ie. your body desire to live .
If you just tie a plastic bag over your head, after a short while, you will grab it, and rip it open, no matter how much you do not want to. If you try something else, a neighbor may stop by ans ask how is it going, and interrupt you, and so on.
More importantly is the, "I must suceed at this" attitude. There is a HUGE difference between wanting to maybe kill yourself, and "making sure i wake up dead". Gun shot to the head sometimes fail. Car accidents sometimes fail. overdose sometimes fail. and so on...
I have tried many timea. Here is what happened.
1. tied bag over haed, and after being unable to breath, ripped bag off.
2. Tried to drop 140lb bar bell onto neck, and was interrupted, 2 seperate times.
3. tried to drive car off mt. charleston, at 110 mph, and on an empmty road, had other driver show up 3 times in a row, blocking my crash route.
4. Hung myselft, and had the 2x4 break into after a few seconds.
5. Tried it again, and passed out, befotre i got back outside.
6. and today, With a double hangmans noose, drunk, and ready to go, actually chickened out, after having te noose, and plastic bag aroundmjy neck, and ready to jump off the ladder.
This is what happemns. No matter what you have taken into consideration, you are your own worse enemy. I drank a lot over several days. I drank a wine cooler, several beers, and 1/2 bottle of tequila. I was NOT able to get drunk, and sobered up completly on the ladder. wtf? Want to talkj me out of it. Fine. Send $16.000 to love2winalot. at patpal, i will stop. This is what i lost, at Wynn casino, and my wife does not know about it.
My neighbor gets home from work at 5:15 each day. I will try again tomorrow, at around 5 pm. I have to figure out a way to not to chicken out this time.
look here is a thing do me a favour and killyourself whimp if you really would want to do it you would have allready also get a job and stop being n****r you phatetic troll
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23 Sep 2010, 8:20 pm
