Last2Know wrote:
Is there any hope of ever getting over this stuff?
L2K
The drain IS creepy, if you are ultra-aware of how the whole system works... all the things you mentioned can seem valid (ARE valid) if your overall sensitivity is amped.
So, this may be the byproduct of just being ultrasensitive (Highly Sensitive Person). Chances are, the shower isn't the only thing that causes this reaction.
Work on the core of your sensitivity, learn to control and calm yourself... find out disciplines that can teach you proper breathing and such...
6 years ago I was still getting overwhelmed/freaked out in parking garages. It was just one of those "things", and it happened for seemingly no reason except overall overstimulation during the day that preceded it.
So I tried breathing in and out slowly while driving. It was very difficult but also immediately helpful - when I could manage.
Later I learned that during these "overwhelm surges" when I may lose control for a moment, I can retain that control by breathing out slowly and evenly - it retains my focus for the few seconds when the freakout peaked.