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Do any of you read much on WP about AS and relate to the posters/watch videos about ASDs/read about ASDs/etc. but have trouble with thinking, "I'm autistic"?
To elaborate, I read a lot about AS (as well as watch videos about it and I read many topics on WP), but when I do sit down to think, "I actually have this," it feels... peculiar. Not the chair, but the realization of the fact that I actually have what I've read about and watched.

Is this some stage of denial? I have been diagnosed since early 2006, but sometimes I still don't feel like I can think "I have Asperger's Syndrome" in my head. I talk about it all the time on this site and occasionally in person, and I relate to much of what the Aspies on here (and other sites) post, but it still feels weird for me to think that I have AS. I'm fifteen, so it isn't like I went decades without a diagnosis; I was diagnosed at ten.

If you define AS by the perceptions that NT's tend to have of it, and adopt those perceptions, then I can see how you might feel that way because such perceptions are generally wrong.

I feel that way sometimes too. I start to think too much about it, and seemingly try to convince myself that I don't have it, but then I analyze my actions and everything, and then I know again that I have it. It does feel weird to say to myself or other people that I have it though, I don't know why...

No. I don't even think to myself: "I have Asperger's" or "I have HFA." I think: "I'm autistic." I am, and I'm comfortable with that.

No, I am comfortable with myself. The question is are you comfortable with yourself?

This. I still have doubts for various reasons, but the basis of everything comes back to this.

My doubts are actually more about lacking a frame of reference against which to judge my own behavior.

My feelings can't be accurately described by means of words, unfortunately.
My original post is probably hard to understand.

I'm more worried that I have something more severe than AS.

My AS friends have a tendency to act and look like they don't have it at all. I can only recognize their AS based on their amount of eye contact, stims, and habits.