Do any of you do anything weird when you are angry?

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I have discovered that I turn super-weird when I am angry.

I tend to hammer-fist my desk when I am angry with an object. Or yell bad words. It is not that uncommon really.

But when I am angry at a person. It doesn't happen often, but, that's when I get really weird. I tend to do roll my eyes up while I trade insults or argue with the person. I try to control this by pretending I am arguing with someone, or when I have a small argument with someone I know, I try to look at that person in the face (not the eyes, or it'd look like I am really angry). But as a teenager, I did that a lot, and a guy eventually noticed and began to talk while rolling his eyes up until they were completely white. It was then that I became aware of this problem.

Oh for sure. My wife points this out to me. She said when I'm angry I start to tremble, to shake, as if I've got Parkinsons or something. It's especially in my head, hands and forearms. It's typically triggered by some criticism (perceived as unfair) about a lapse in "common sense" that I sometimes show. Occasionally I have yelled while looking up at the sky and waved my hands around saying something like "would you just let it drop??" or "ALL RIGHT!! !!" If I'm near a cupboard, I'll slam it, but have curtailed that behaviour thankfully.

I don't just think it's triggers in my immediate environment, but more the compounded effect of criticism and bullying dating back to childhood that culminated in this behaviour. I feel really bad about it afterwards, b/c it's like I'm punishing someone who wasn't responsible for the crap in my past.

I can become so angry I can't talk. It's sucks because in my head I'm good at arguing.

I also have a lot of physiological reactions: rigid body, tingly, deep pressure in head, tears, etc.

I can't handle my emotions well. sometimes they come out in outbursts and I start screaming or pacing/rocking fast. I seem to be implosive with my anger. I try not to express it which pushes me further to express it and I run away from the situation and burst out crying or laughing. I lose myself and things become hazy my functioning levels are usually low when I have an episode of intense emotion. my speech is slurry.

I have the same effect. I got easily aggravated, and then I yell and scream, almost totally ununderstandably. I can't put my thoughts into words, I may say cliches instead of my thoughts. I may look like as if I've gone mad. I'm trembling for minutes, too. I've been told this state could appear rather frightening to others around me. It happens when I perceive extreme unfairness toward me or someone just messes around me way beyond his/her competence or doesn't get what I've explained lots of times thoroughly and still insults me with his/her ignorance or during road-rage situations.

I want to believe I'm getting better at these, but evidently I've got much to do yet.