Without a diagnosis by an appropriately trained and licensed mental-health professional, your research is pointless.
You may have other conditions that can either mimic your symptoms or distort your perceptions. In either case, the subjective nature of your "diagnosis" is likely to be incorrect. If it is, then you will end up "treating" the wrong condition.
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No love for Hamas, Hezbollah, Iranian Leadership, Islamic Jihad, other Islamic terrorist groups, OR their supporters and sympathizers.