According to my parents I wanted to make friends in kindergarten and was very active but I got rejected by almost all of them so I stopped approaching people. And my earliest report card stated something along those lines that I didn't interact with children in my class at all.
Then again, as a toddler I was very quiet and didn't react to people much....I have a theory that, me, reading social stories about friend making (especially, friend making for outsiders, I don't know why exactly we had those kind of children's books) made me think I should do the same and it didn't work out so I gave up.
Nonetheless, now and then I'll try to be social sometimes but I prefer being "found" by others. And even if I'm "found", I'm bad at keeping friendships....unless the other person makes a great effort. I'd say I like to talk about my interests, I have urges to talk and if I have someone who listens, I'm good.
So, yes, withdrawn but I need a listening someone from time to time but making the effort is very difficult (it seems like a question of luck and chance to me than anything else).
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Knowing / that I could walk seventeen miles through a ravine / in the heart of Toronto,
and never / directly see the city/ is of some comfort