How often do you think of your "autism"?

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I havent been on this site in a while and i think it has to do with the fact that i dont think of my self as "autistic" anymore, just a cool guy with some quirks. I went through this phase where i kind of hit a wall and tried to explain why i do things a certain way, but for about 4-5 months now, i hardly try to say to myself, "well, its because im hfa/as" to explain my choices. Its more of, "well this particular situation happened this way and there was nothing else i could of done to make it better", and having that mind set to where i couldnt of done anything else, and the learned experiences because of it far outweigh the fact that something didnt go as i would of preferred. These past few months for me have been great, although its been alot tougher on myself, its also so much more rewarding. I guess what im wondering is, how often do you think of yourself as autistic, and how do you feel about yourself because of it. Im me, the fact that i might be a little bit "aspie" is no longer in my daily thoughts, and i feel much more human and independent because of it.

I'm still discovering that I'm aspie and searching a new way of life, so it takes up a lot of my time. But it's worth it.

I wouldn't think about it if I wasn't on here... I jsut came here to meet friends who would understand my social anxiety because they're anxious around people themselves, and besides that there is less of a chance people will pick on me because they've been picked on themselves and know better... and I also wanted people to understand my awful depression and there are some very depressed people here.

At this point I think about it all the time. Like you said, I think it is a phase you have to go through when you get diagnosed. I guess things will just be back to "normal" in a couple of months or so.. After all I am the same person as I were before I got diagnosed, so I have lived with my Asperger all of my life already...

I guess "When I Don't" would be a the most appropriate choice for me. It's not like it's eating away at my soul 24/7 but it crosses my mind almost always.

I think about it everyday rather I am borderline AS or PDD-NOS. I have lot of things to say to my shrink about all my traits I have and my past. I wrote it all down.

I do fink about it a few tyms in a week about my AS but i look it as a postive n not as a negative as im able 2 do tings dat mainstream ppl can't do such as memorising train timetables, road maps n able 2 compete wid mainstream ppl in cricket n tennis however i always get in 2 a routine n if ppl break dem i get really pissed off.

"a few times a day when something awkward happens" scept akward things happen to me all the time.

Whenever I do something stupid or absentminded.

I come on here, but I don't think about it all the time. Autism helps me to understand what I love to research and that is the human mind. I now know that I am autistic and I am often remembered by things that my brain works differently and that all my experiences have been different from what. I'm proud of the way I am and autism is just a part of it for me. So, it's like autism is just like body parts or my hobbies to me; it doesn't have a special relevance but I'm very fine with the idea.

But seeing autism as in the disorder autism that I have, I try to get away from everything related to this like therapy and confrontations and trouble because of autistic behaviour as much as possible. I dislike that a lot, it makes me question myself as someone who is strange or even ill and this idea just doesn't sit right with me.

I rarely think about it.
1-2 times a week i think on average.
When you think about it too much you start feeling like a victim.
I know my brain works a bit differently, but i try to fit in.

Talking about it is also something i don't do.
People wil change theyr view on you when you do.
This way generally assures people wil judge me for who i am.
Not as someone with a disease or a handicap.
generally this works alot better for me.

This makes me happier, and my life more normal.

When I was younger I thought I'd naturally grow out of my quirks just like one grows out of wearing a diaper or playing with dolls. Now when I have found about AS I realized that conviction wasn't necesserily true. I think about the reason of my wierdness, I'd say, almost all the time - even if I don't ponder it consciously, that thought is lurking somewhere there, in the darkest nooks of my mind. And I'm glad I'm myself. Maybe I'd like to change some things if I had such a possibility but generally I'd never want to change a very essence of my self. Never. I like observing people, for example in a bus, and I wonder then what they'd say if I told them I've AS

I never used to think about it, then 1 day I found this place, back during the late winter, and now its on my mind more,. I could have went years during high school beleive I grew outa what my father called 'juvinal autism' but I always stuck out like a sour thumb, 1 day I decided to actually find out what HFA was (i never knew, just that I had it when I was younger) and learned alot, then I found this place. I dont think that being here caused me to think about it, but I do think that when I thought about it I found this place and now continue to think about it as I go on day to day, kinda a way to understand better why I do/act the way I do.

There is no category for "only when dealing with language".

I don't think of myself split up into autistic parts and non-autistic parts and all that, I just do things and live my life.

But when I have to talk to people about various things, then autism becomes a relevant category.