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I just woke from a bad dream. It is early. The dream was much longer than what I will describe. And was much more detailed and had more meaning than what I will say. But in short, here is what bothered me the most. There was a house that was huge and beautiful. It was run down. A new friend I just met online who is equally beautiful was looking at the house with me. We walked through her huge stately rooms together and imagined the possibilities. The rooms were vast and adorned with
Stradi: Victorian decorations. It was a palace of sorts. I could describe the rooms to be about 80 feet by 80 feet. And the cielings were maybe 35 feet high. The room I am describing was a ball room. There was dust and everything needed some repair. I refused to buy it because of my situation in life. My friend became angry and hurt. …skipping forward in the dream, later my wife and I were invited to a party.
Stradi: The party was to be held in that very home. A neighbor in real life up the road from me purchased the estate. This neighbor lives in one of the larger Victorians that even has a built in pool. She openly tells e people that she feels I am a pervert and a worthless bum. The home was now restored to her former glory. There were many people in the ball room. My wife was mingling. Everyone was so kind to her. I too walked around but felt very uncomfortable. No one wished to speak to me. I became more and
Stradi: more uncomfortable. So, I walked to the bar where the woman who owned the house happened to be. I was going to get my own drink but she asked me what I wanted. I said to her that I only wanted a glass o water. Everyone else was drinking very expensive drinks and of course all drinks were on the house. I did not want to feel I owed her in any way. I was not important nor did I have any value like the others there. She got the drink for me and handed it to me as she said, “Your Life Sucks, Doesn’t It Erick?” I
Stradi: took off running and told my wife I was leaving upset. She refused to go and laughed along with the others. I walked out into the yard and cried alone. Finally after the party, she came out and told me how humiliated she was. I tried to tell her how everyone sees me. Yet I knew she did not understand nor would she ever. She was not the one everyone judged. I knew that woman and all those in the house judged me as a pervert. Yet I did not deserve to be accused in this way. I had done nothing
Stradi: wrong. And yet everyone hated me and felt disgusted I was there. And she judged me because I do not make money of my own. So, I had no means to buy that big home so that I could enjoy my life the way I wished. I felt trapped. And someone else had moved into the home to start my life fresh. And instead of me, she was living the happiness I wished to live. In my dream, I became paralyzed. And then there was that dark creature. I woke screaming and alone in my home. No one is here. And it is very quiet. I
Stradi: know what this dream means. I feel frustrated right now. A part o me wants to begin a new life. But I know I have no means to do so. I want it like I need water. But no one will allow me the ability to take that sip. And I have no means to support my desire. I’m worthless. I’m only a burdon to those around me. I’m a parasite that is undesirable….something that must be removed and discarded. Yet, I crave something new and beautiful. But in order to obtain it, I must become success. And I know I can never have it. I feel stunned as I sit here…. I feel very frustrated.

I wanted to also say, I have very intense dreams every time I sleep. I also recall them when I wake. Most of my dreams are nightmares. In my dreams, see in color. I can smell, touch, taste and most importantly hear classical music. In the dream that wakes me, there is always a very dark frightening creature that I feel to be a demon or the devil. I will become paralzyed and scream for others to wake me. Most often, my daughter will here me and wake me or my wife. When I am alone, I attemt to rock my body till I fall out of bed.

Old Soul

I had an interesting dream once:

I was in a forest being chased down by someone with a knife, I disarm him and throw it away and keep running. This forest had a lot of animals in it at one time, but they were all being cleared out to make it more "safe" for people. The forest was basicly being assaulted. As I had almost escaped from the forest, I notice a wolf just off the path, he looks at me as if he is ready to attack, but not going to unless something happens, and I just stare into its eye with bewilderment, and it returns the same stare as if we are both feeling the same pain.

EDIT: I actually am curious as to what this means, and more so the last part with the wolf... To add to it, the wolf was somehow different from everything else in the forest

Once again, Old_Soul, you have written a very beautiful story.

I'm not sure what to say... you understand yourself so well, better than I understand myself.

I am feeling some of the same things that you are feeling. I too have "lost my soul". Reading your dream helped make my own seem clearer. Your words speak to my own heart, my own problems.

Thank you for posting this, and keep trying. Maybe if you keep writing, you will help yourself and other like me, too.

Here is one question: don't you have a medical degree?

interestingly... a lot of our more lucid dreams (and aslo nightmares) do not occur in REM sleep.

i dont think i've ever had a nightmare.....could it have something to do with being an aspie?

Sleep paralysis is so scary. I've had it only once and never want to do it again. I know it is a natural phenomenon, but at the time you can't remember that and feel terrified.

It happens to me every night at 4 a.m. exactly.

Old Soul

What is "sleep paralysis"???

It is horible. Basically, you are in between sleep and being awake. You know you are sleeping but are concious. There is nothingness...just blackness ....you do not know if you are alive or dead. You can not move anything as there is no body to move. you try to move but feel pinned to the ground. Often, a very dark creature will visit you at this point. He is alll evil. and you fear him so much you think you will die from being too close to him. You will scream for those you know to wake you. You will actually scream out their names. And they can hear you. I say, "Mary! Wake me please!! !! !"

Old Soul

Sleep Paralysis

I firmly believe when we are in this state, at times negative entities take advantage of it and that explains the crushing feeling. I know others would disagree but this is what I firmly believe. I haven't had an incident like that since last January because every night now before I go to sleep, I tell any being that is not welcome around me to leave. And I have not had an incident since..