Does it really take me to be a real narcissist to start asserting my own boundaries?
I still cannot do the damn balancing act.
I cannot "assert" it's either suck it up or destroy the damn relationship.
I really wish I'm a narcissist. Really.
Like how I wish I'm a sociopath or a psychopath.
That these situations will be so normal that it'll just be predictable, it'll just be something to go about than being shocked all over.
Heck, sometimes I genuinely thought it's a way for me to stop hurting them; by being away from them.
But then again.
People cannot distinguish between me, really not wanting to do with people, with their minds and emotions at all -- from whatever assumptions they have about me 'neglecting them' or 'leeching them'.
People, just let me fricking go.
So there will be less further hurt, so there will be a more appropriate time other than the damnable aggressive state that will escalate the situation.
I want to leave, but people were being insistent about the shite idea of fixing.
And I don't know how -- really fricking don't know how. Except it involves invalidating and prosecuting me; apparently that will help me solve your damn problems.
Or whatever the heck you're demanding of me.