Confusion?

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Ok I have not posted here yet but recently I started thinking about how straight I really am...and thus far I feel like I cannot come to a definate conclusion. Basically though what I can say is I am physically female but according to conversations I have heard and random things I have heard I have more of a male brain. I personally have no real issue with this, its just how I have always been.


But society seems to think i should not dress like a male or act like one, however my mental state has tended to be more male like. A lot of females are better at expressing emotions than males, but I have always suppressed a lot of things and when it comes out people treat it as temporary 'time of the month crap and attitude issues' But I don't really feel like that is what I am feeling.......sometimes I get very angry and want to destroy things and I realise this is a rather small issue amoung the straight female population but I tend to relate better to advice directed at males than advice directed at females.......Maybe I am just a bit paranoid but I feel like discrimination towards gay and transgender people has increased so I am kind of afraid to admit how I feel. about it.

My OH has been told she has a 'male brain'. When her school tried to push girls into secretarial work or hairdressing, she announced she was going to work in industrial chemistry instead! Her idea of the perfect shop is a D i Y Superstore: her idea of hell is an office full of gossiping women! Psychs are fascinated that in all her dreams she is male not female!

She has no 'problem' with being female, though: if other women think she is 'unfeminine', that is their problem! So don't let anybody push you into any kind of identity with which you are uncomfortable: in particular, don't worry about being 'a female with a male brain'!

I am female-bodied, but I have always identified as male. I've always known that my body wasn't quite right, but it wasn't until I was done maturing (around 20-21) that I started really realizing the enormity of spending the rest of my life trapped in this hell of a body. I've identified as transgendered for the past 4 or 5 years, but I only recently started coming out to anyone other than my husband. I've always dressed male, had a short haircut, no makeup, etc...so I don't see it being a huge shock to most people who know me. Still, I've been really stressed out and preoccupied lately, worrying a lot. I had no idea what coming out would feel like, but it's weird, at least to me.
I'm currently in counselling specifically for the gay/trans/bi community, but that's only because I'm at a life or death point in my journey.
My advice would be, do a lot of reading. Read about GID (gender identification disorder), transsexualism, and see if it feels comfortable. Also, feeling in between genders is not uncommon in people with Aspergers, or other forms of autism. I know on the women's board there are some postings about it.