Jamesy wrote:
Getting a bit hostile towards me hear. i did have it coming though so maybe i should lock this thread?
No, Jamesy, not hostile. Just honest. I'm not going to continue to argue the point I've already argued. Others can do that and give you pats on the back for having a mean brother that you claim always picks on you and your parents love more, but we're not in The Haven, so I don't feel obligated to play along.
I'm willing to bet in Vegas that the truth is that most of this is in your head and your brother is only taking your cue about what you can and cannot do as an adult with AS, and that your parents only gravitate more towards your brother right now because he's not depressed. Depressed people are challenging and draining. They may not be able to handle it all the time. This means that you need therapy and medication. If you are on medication, it's not working and you need something different or a stronger dose of what you have. You need treatment.
You're an adult now, Jamesy. You have to take responsibility for yourself.
"If you cannot do the impossible, do what's necessary then do what's possible; and, suddenly, you're doing the impossible." - St. Francis of Assisi
So, you think having a relationship is impossible. Don't do that then. Instead, go get proper treatment - that is necessary. Then, start talking to people and just being friends - that is possible. One day, suddenly, you'll find yourself in a relationship. That's how it works. Stop moping here and go give it a try.