Do you wish you never existed?

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just want some answrs here

I'm happy to be alive, I've adjusted quite well to the world as an autistic person, and I'm proud that I look like Mick Avory. This is directed at everyone. I can't really be proud of my genes, so I said that I'm proud of something that makes sense. To the OP. I know that guy's a little before your time. I also really am happy to be alive.

Often. All of my problems could have been avoided if I just hadn't been born. I don't actually want to kill myself, but I do wish that I had never been born.

I felt the same way when I was your age. I hope things get easier for you, like they did for me.

I felt that way as a pre teen.

Sometimes I've wished the world didn't exist. I enjoy too many things too much to wish I never existed, though. It can be really hard, but I've never doubted myself. It isn't my fault if the world has made itself too confusing -- I still want to be around to do my thing. :]

I think about it at least once a week, since many years ago. If I could change something in my life, I wish I was aborted.
But it's important to say, I consider AS 33% of the surreal burden I have.

About every day. Especially before my birthday and on the very day (thanks God it's over now for a whole year ahead )

Though, most of the time I think how gladly I would give my own life so that my brother could be alive today instead of me.
He was a very nice NT person who was ill almost all his life and died before turning 25.
Would have been much more right if he had a long life - I am sure he would live it well - and I was simply never born.

Yes I do. I often wish my mother would've aborted me. I wouldn't have missed anything simply by virtue of the fact that i'd be oblivious to existence altogether. I would've missed out on a lifetime of inexpressible pain though.
I'm just being honest here....my life has hardly been a joy and I truly have no idea if it would've been better had I done anything differently. Still trying though....but the hour is growing rather late at 41.

I stopped feeling that way when I stopped trying to "connect" with NTs.

<-- has been suicidal several times, the last time in August

My self-perception is all messed up -.-
I can enjoy life and I do. It only takes very little to make me happy and confident... and only very little to make me stressed and depressive.

For whatever reason....I felt compelled to post this sublime epic by Deep Purple in this thread.




[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PfAWReBmxEs[/youtube]

I don't want suicide. Maybe it would be better if I was never born.

That's the same with me. I'm now happy to be alive.

The most complete version of this sentiment would be that my existence had never even been conceived of by God. And, yes, I have felt that. But it is a wholly and irrevocably selfish sentiment, a desire that cannot ever be fulfilled. So I put it aside and tried other avenues of thought.

I wish I never exisited. A lot of people have been hurt by me. I am not sorry for what I have done, but they sure as hell were.