Joined: 29 Oct 2011 Gender: Female Posts: 11,521 Location: ᜆᜄᜎᜓᜄ᜔
14 Apr 2024, 12:14 pm
My most recent decisions are supposed to freak me out into avoiding and escaping whatever consequences that might be.
Usually, I'd be torn into different directions in the inside, between false caution disguised as reason and my conscious wants. Half the time, I was able to transform it into excitement. That is, if I was not too torn and tired for a dare and gamble...
That's the key; for me to transform negative distressing anxiety into anxious excitement that makes me feel alive... ... It's to have the energy to feel alive at all. Sleep issues, the hormonal imbalance and unwanted thoughts that I wish I have the power to not listen to doesn't help me with that.
Huh. No wonder why sometimes it doesn't work, frustrated why I couldn't do it again. It was the damn missing subtle prerequisites, again.
Now? It's reduced into a form of... Hot flash like heat. Around the back of the base of my head and into my neck, again.
I wonder how much I can dissect more about my emotions in this state than I already had. At least this time, it's more voluntary.
Hmm... Should I bring ice nearby around me in case this happens? It's not exactly a pleasant feeling.
But I cannot wait but restart my old online life back.
Joined: 11 Nov 2011 Gender: Female Posts: 64,731 Location: UK
14 Apr 2024, 1:17 pm
I can't believe the price of bath panels. I'm sure that last time I looked into it they were about 30 quid. They're like 70 or 80 quid now...I'll have to see if i can look at a cheaper option. I'm not spending loads of money on doing up a council property...no way José
Joined: 20 Oct 2021 Age: 53 Gender: Male Posts: 5,330 Location: Manchester, UK
14 Apr 2024, 1:21 pm
Everything's more expensive these days. I've recently paid nearly £500 for a tv aerial as the council wouldn't install one. (I also live in a council flat).
_________________ Diagnosed with ADHD - Inattentive type and undiagnosed aspergers.
Interests: music (especially 80s), computers, electronics, amateur radio, soccer (Liverpool).
Joined: 20 Oct 2021 Age: 53 Gender: Male Posts: 5,330 Location: Manchester, UK
14 Apr 2024, 1:24 pm
West Lancs council where I lived last did but Wigan council where I am now won't. Just paid best part of a grand for carpets and blinds. Nothing comes cheap these days..
_________________ Diagnosed with ADHD - Inattentive type and undiagnosed aspergers.
Interests: music (especially 80s), computers, electronics, amateur radio, soccer (Liverpool).
Joined: 11 Nov 2011 Gender: Female Posts: 64,731 Location: UK
14 Apr 2024, 1:28 pm
When I agreed to take this place the whole flat was fully laminated and by the time I moved in the council had ripped the whole lot out. I was spitting about that for years. Well I still am if I'm honest.
Joined: 11 Nov 2011 Gender: Female Posts: 64,731 Location: UK
14 Apr 2024, 1:36 pm
Made no sense to me. And the guy who lived here before only moved a few doors away and he was livid too. I was left with no carpet but he gave me a massive rug for the living room so that was kind of him