EXPECIALLY wrote:
Now, I haven't felt anything deeply since 2010.
Everything I feel comes and goes so quickly, and it's all just very shallow.
I've been this way for years.
Unless I'm passionate about something, I don't carry feelings for it for very long. Anger, rage, irritation, etc., these things I can feel easily and regularly. All of the "noble emotions" (love, etc.) I feel hardly ever.
It makes things difficult because having empathy, making friends, etc. require feelings I'm just not getting, and ironically, this only gets me angry because I'm concerned about the fact that I feel nothing when social convention indicates that I should feel "something."
I'm trying to find something the fires my passions so that perhaps I'll start forming emotional connections again rather than becoming ever more of a recluse.