psych wrote:
AvPD seems to have a long term risk to developing into an 'intermediate schizoid' personality, which seems to have happened to me. So i would try and challange/treat it if you can. I know its difficult if you have autistic type issues, but anything you can do to stop it getting worse and hold your current lifestyle in place, whether going to meetup groups or just getting out more would help.
I think you are right.
Ive always ( more or less) had the "willy's" in social encounters-- and even way back to the first grade. Fortunately, I've been able to connect to a few in my time, easing some sort of internal tension that I had --a sort of validation. And it is true: the more you are immersed into this, the more "used to it" you become.
It all boils down ( for me) some sort of theory of mind difference, and I've gradually learned
how people think and can relate to this now on an intellectual level.
If I didnt fight this tendency I certainly believe it could consume like a fire.
I recall being at my grandparents at around 17-18 years of age, and feeling a flood of anxiety with the idea of talking to him (in small talk).
So much so, creating a mild stim in myself. I'd say to myself: " what are you really afraid of-- and why be so afraid?"
I used to 'duck into the bathroom' when we had company to "pull myself together." *Frightful*