1000Knives wrote:
I'd probably hate this. I take caffeine and other stimulants and they relieve my anxiety. As most of my anxiety is related to ability or inability to do a task, or that I can't think fast enough. I've only realized now basically my entire days can be fueled by adrenaline and cortisol and whatnot. I'll have caffeine before driving or whatever to keep me calm before I anticipate stressful driving like on the highway or something. I need the fast reaction times the stimulants give as without them my reaction times are slow due to my NVLD.
It's kinda a cursed existence if I think about it, doomed to always be "stressed" but needing to be to accomplish anything.
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I'm very similar to you in how I use caffeine to function, but caffeine actually makes me feel more relaxed (as well as more alert, competent, etc.), not more stressed. I feel stressed when I'm drowsy and dysfunctional, which is much of the time.