Highly_Autistic wrote:
Im afraid of losing my potential and every passing year is contributing to it. When im in deathbed how am I going to convince myself that i lived a fulfilling life and tried my best
Everybody loses potential, that's why it's potential and not actual.
The thing though is that you're not dead. (If you were, I'd be very impressed that you managed to post this)
The question becomes what is something that you'd like to accomplish, and what would it take to make it so.
I'd also point out that no matter how much a person has accomplished, that feeling will remain. I know from experience, because I have legitimately accomplished and experienced a lot, but only a small fraction of the stuff that i could theoretically have accomplished with more resources and not wasting so much time on things like sleeping.