Did I finally do something "normal"?
It was my birthday the other day, and because I share the same birthday with my boss, he is usually the one to buy cakes for the people in the office, which is the custom where I work.
This year I offered to do it because he is going through a rough time, so I bought some cakes & emailed everyone telling them where they were & to come help themselves (which was imitating what other people have done in the past).
I was so amazed by all the really friendly emails I got wishing me "Happy Birthday", some of them from people I hardly ever even talk to. I feel like they suddenly "accepted" me because I did something that was expected of me socially.
Now I am wondering how much friendship I have been missing out on by keeping to myself so much, but I still don't know how to change and act like an NT all the time!
Yes, I realise that.
What I mean is, I feel I suddenly had a glimpse of the NT world, & it felt so warm & friendly! But it was only a glimpse, because I don't know how to prop that door open!! !
Yes, I realise that.
What I mean is, I feel I suddenly had a glimpse of the NT world, & it felt so warm & friendly! But it was only a glimpse, because I don't know how to prop that door open!! !
It's like this for me too. I get some glimpse in from the cold now and then, but my general impression is to be locked out in the cold. That does not bother me so much, cause I like it, to be alone.
Now, it might be a matter of training, to socialice but you always do it on the others terms, not your own. Means, that you can fake to be social, but you ain't. I also realize that it's sometimes nescessary to appear as a social person, for various reasons. So training in socialising is a good thing, as long as you keep the real you in it all the time. In short, we are talking pretending.
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I don't pay any attention to you, standing there thinking you are in control, cause I am in control-mosez
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