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Hi! I'm new here. I'm not sure about having Asperger's, but I've got the symptoms and every test I take tells me I'm very likely to be on the spectrum. Maybe that's not a reliable source, I hope I'll find out.
My name is Ree Taemra, but people know me as Julia. And I come from another planet, so maybe I found the right place I've always had problems with people, because I don't know how to communicate, they are like different species, so being from another planet was the only logical explanation. I never know when it's my turn to speak, I often lose the topic of conversation, but when I'm finally talking about something that interests me, no one can say a word. I talk too loud when I'm excited and shake my hands, or sit on them, or bite my fingers, or hold my nose (it's when I'm inside my head - helps me feel myself). I am always hugging myself or holding my hands together or hide my thumbs when I'm nervous (most of the time). People tell me that I've got weird eating habits, but I don't know, that's just comfortable for me.
My interests are very strong. When I'm interested in something, I try to find out everything possible. My interest in human anatomy, physiology and various diseases was so strong that I'm struggling as a medical student, having an everyday trouble of waking up and going outside. Future scares me. Good at studying, bad at talking.
I often get depressed because I don't like myself. I've always been "that weird girl", and I've got tons of problems with friendship - I can't have a friend for a long time. Some people just stop talking to me, and sometimes it's me who is running away. So I'm feeling lonely and sad most of the time, but then I take a book or watch a tv show and forget about it. And then, when I think that spending time with my favourite books or films or drawing or harmonica is actually better for me, than talking to someone, it makes me feel worse. I've never met anyone who could understand me.
I don't know why I'm writing all this here. Maybe I just needed to take these words outside. I've tried to join some communities but never fit in, so I don't know.
Have a good day!

I'm sure it's not a simple boring story, you are justing telling us the "bad" point of it.

Anyway, i found myself in the same level as you told: an "almost" diagnosed.

The ways you do with your arms... Wow, seems like you was observing me!

Before I had contact with A.S. informations, I just though that I do "friendship" in a different way for years. I have friends that I consider too much (too much!), but I don't talk with then, even eletronicaly, for months or years. As like i have a mental connection that keep growing our friendship; they "understand me". Well, it's realy different, but it's my way.

For now, I can't say i have all consciousness about A.S., but I can really understand it's very present in my life. I'm sure to say it's very confortable to me read a briefing like yours, because it makes me more wise about how the A.S. affect people and I can detect it's affecting me.

You play the harmonica? Kewl.

Welcome to WP!

hello, your story is not boring, welcome to wp!

i'm similar to you, haven't been diagnosed but all the tests keep telling me it's very possible. sometimes it is good to just let things out, so it doesn't all build up inside you and explode.