Do you love or hate having aspergers/autism?

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I hate it. If I could take a pill tomorrow and be NT, I would ask why it can't be today. It has caused me a lot of grief.

~Kate

I love it.

Sure social difficulties annoy me, but I have my own little corner in my mind that is rather pleasant. My own little talents, my own ideas and opinions.

And to put it bluntly I somewhat enjoy knowing that I am different (most days anyway), I'd never want to be normal.

I have some days where I've cried in frustration and exclaimed that the few moments of hypoxia in the womb ruined my entire life. I have other days where I exclaim that those moments were the best thing to ever happen in my life. Either way, they were the most important minutes of my life, and I know that while they come with really difficult challenges, they also come with really great advantages.

I'll just bet the answers {love it/hate it} are relative to the age of the aspie responding. It is not easy at all being an older person. If you had early intervention and have a strong support base around you, then it might not be so bad. I am essentially on my own in this world. I am fortunate to have a husband, who loves me, he had a disabled brother when he was growing up, and I'll bet that has a lot to do with his patience and understanding. But I have no support or even contact with "family"... I am an adoptee, so I was quite a disappointment to the people who thought they were buying a perfect baby. And they were quite clear about that while I grew up. Haven't spoken to them in over 27 years. I only have husband and dogs. Not easy, finding out FINALLY what is 'wrong' with me, that was such a disappointment to them... and me....

As someone just learning about things, I currently HOPE that this is me... it answers questions and makes me feel like if I apply this filter of what is different that most of the rest of me is completely typical... In fact the reason I question how deep I am is because of how normal I feel when I strip away the similarities that I have to AS/HFA diagnosis...

So for me... I actually want it to be more true in my mind... it'll make me feel better, it'll make me feel like I know whats up and what things are natural for me and what things I can improve upon...

It's like having a super-power with weaknesses, and finally learning that you have it... and that its the reason that you were able to shoot fireballs from your fingers or whatever super heroes do (I am not big on super hero stories sorry)