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Forum: General Autism Discussion Topic: Anyone here hate themeselves? |
| InNomineLux |
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Posted: 24 Apr 2017, 9:51 pm
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Replies: 21
Views: 1,443
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| I used to. It's been a long, crazy road to this understanding and shaky acceptance of myself. Someday I may even like myself. But I definitely don't hate myself like I used to. |
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Forum: The Haven Topic: I sometimes wonder... |
| InNomineLux |
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Posted: 24 Apr 2017, 9:45 pm
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Replies: 4
Views: 480
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| I'm 25; I have friends my age, 35 year old friends, 60 year old friends, 11 year old friends. It is what it is; to some degree, you can't choose the people who come into your life. You just connect with them. |
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Forum: General Autism Discussion Topic: I've got something really shameful to say. Help? |
| InNomineLux |
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Posted: 24 Apr 2017, 9:37 pm
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Replies: 29
Views: 1,580
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| On a related note, I have very frequent dreams (several times a week) about peeing in/on places other than the toilet, or about public bathrooms that are so extensive, they're like mazes, and the toilets are weirdly-built. I don't know what to make of that. -shrug- I very often have dreams like tha... |
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Forum: The Haven Topic: Do you dread getting old? |
| InNomineLux |
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Posted: 23 Apr 2017, 10:19 pm
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Replies: 30
Views: 1,812
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| I've resisted getting older every step of the way. I didn't want to potty train (and I still have a fixation with diapers), I snuck my pacifier until I was past four years old, puberty sounded like a death sentence, and I seriously considered suicide at 17 so I would never be an adult. I'm 25 now, s... |
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Forum: General Autism Discussion Topic: Do you deal with intrusive thoughts? |
| InNomineLux |
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Posted: 23 Apr 2017, 10:01 pm
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Replies: 42
Views: 12,837
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| I have really, really terrible intrusive thoughts about hurting my students. I know it's not "me" thinking them, because I'm generally worried and afraid of the thoughts; and besides, it's not like I haven't had the opportunity while alone with them to hurt them. Never have, and I never wi... |
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Forum: General Autism Discussion Topic: Food sensory problems? |
| InNomineLux |
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Posted: 23 Apr 2017, 9:49 pm
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Replies: 19
Views: 2,040
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| Oh god, this is the thing that really tipped me off to being autistic in the first place. I can't handle a lot of saucy/creamy textures. I can't eat sandwiches with condiments; no ketchup, mustard, mayo, any of that. Creamy soups are a no-go, but I make a (very hesitant) exception for grilled cheese... |
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Forum: General Autism Discussion Topic: I've got something really shameful to say. Help? |
| InNomineLux |
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Posted: 23 Apr 2017, 9:32 pm
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Replies: 29
Views: 1,580
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| Don't feel like you have to be ashamed. You are what you are. I wouldn't feel like you can't tell the psychiatrist, either; they won't make fun of you or think you're bizarre, they're there to help you and maybe give you insight into doing the things you do. On a related note, I have very frequent d... |
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Forum: General Autism Discussion Topic: Faking it for so long |
| InNomineLux |
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Posted: 01 Aug 2016, 10:32 pm
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Replies: 29
Views: 1,836
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| All. The time. I find myself agreeing with something someone said about a topic I know nothing about (movies or music, for example). Or quoting lines from movies I never watched, but heard someone quoting them and just matching pitch. I don't even realize I'm doing it until after it's out of my mout... |
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Forum: General Autism Discussion Topic: Changes and feeling lost |
| InNomineLux |
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Posted: 01 Aug 2016, 10:30 pm
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Replies: 11
Views: 1,128
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It's been six months since I left my last job and I'm still struggling with resisting going back there to visit everyday and asking for it back.
Trust me, I get it. |
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Forum: General Autism Discussion Topic: Autism and Religion |
| InNomineLux |
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Posted: 01 Aug 2016, 10:28 pm
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Replies: 53
Views: 3,097
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| I think my autism has definitely impacted my view of religion. Right now, I'm somewhere in between pagan and Buddhist. My religion is a lot more grounded in "reality" than it once was. I was Wiccan for most of my life, until I met someone who taught Wicca and had a horrible experience with... |
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Forum: General Autism Discussion Topic: Anyone else never been clubbing before? |
| InNomineLux |
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Posted: 01 Aug 2016, 10:22 pm
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Replies: 68
Views: 4,505
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| I went clubbing once; it was fun, but I don't think I enjoyed it for the reasons everyone else seemed to. It was a gay bar in my area, and I went with a couple friends. That was a fun part, doing something "normal" with them. I also enjoyed watching everyone else dance, and the couple maki... |
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Forum: General Autism Discussion Topic: Feeling alone |
| InNomineLux |
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Posted: 01 Aug 2016, 10:14 pm
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Replies: 3
Views: 422
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| I understand what you're going through. I have a hard time communicating with my parents about anything in my life. Especially my dad; I feel very judged no matter what I say. I just don't think he understands me. Sometimes I think he plays that judgment off as if he were joking, but sometimes I'm n... |
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