deep-techno wrote:
I never feel positive about my achievements (there is a long list of them). I used to be very enthusiastic last year and did extremely well. However, I've almost become 'immune' to my achievements so that I don't get as much joy as I used to. As a result I feel that the teachers only say I'm doing well to make me happy (even if they're not), and I feel less motivated. I want to stop this because I'm doing my mock exams in a few weeks and still need to revise. I have lately been feeling like I can't be bothered to think very much (sometimes I will express myself and stop and say "I just don't feel like thinking!"). I want this to stop.
However, I can't find the straight answer. What are the typical causes for this? Is it bullying? (I often feel like most people are juxtaposed against me) I just don't know the answer because I don't really celebrate my success and don't have as much motivation s I used to (still, I get the work done). Nowadays I feel like I'm doing work because I'm programmed to. (although I still do remarkably well - so far this year I got 2 Student of the Month awards)
However, when I do relax I start worrying about the work I could be doing in that time. I also don't feel as enthusiastic as I used to, so I need advice on how I can fix that.
Now, I actually WOULD LIKE some advice. This is a very important year for me, so I am not going to blow it!
I sometimes put myself down due to being different from everyone but I'm always told by my friends, family and teachers that I achieved some many great things that most people with Asperger's dreamt of doing. I always look at positive side of things for me and what I can accomplished if I just do not give up on myself.
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29 Oct 2007, 12:16 pm
