Any self-injurers or people with eating disorders here?

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Self harm on and off.. almost Drunk myself to death one time.. i was lucky i didn't choke on my own vomit. But interestingly enough, it's only really happened since around this time last year. Previously i was happy as a pig in mud.

I cut fairly often. (Which is actually impossible to do today because I have to have a physical exam tomorrow and it's bugging the heck out of me. Cutting really is like an addiction.)

I still cut quite regularly. The shrinks check my arms so i have to cut legs instead.

What are your reasons for cutting, if I may ask? Good to see someone on here from an area so local to me.

I sometimes feel like cutting, just because I like pain... But there are too many people watching over me.

That blows my mind...why don't they check legs? Not that I'm suggesting you should let them know...nothing more humiliating than being forced to display yourself like that. Blah.

Often its my way of coping with emotions. Sometimes I just get the urge to cut or hurt myself and i cant really tell why

I also cut to cope with all sorts of traumatic things that happened as I grew up including self hate, punishment for guilt as a result of sexual abuse, bullying etc.

Doesnt help that to be honest I dont really understand most emotions full stop. Someone could ask me to describe emotions but i cant. often I dont know if i feel shameful, guilty, sad, tearful, upset etc etc. the words dont really have any meaning to me other than they apply to certain situations. Guilt is about the only one i understand and also shame but i think they are the same feeling just applied in different contexts????? I just get so confused by emotions!! !!

Because I initially was sent to pshychiatric hospital for cutting my arms. Was easiest place to cut really. Legs are only cos they check arms. I was cutting my arms in hospital too but they didnt check until i was discharged and they were shocked i was still cutting.

I dont think the navy shrinks I see really understand self harm in any way. Otherwise they would know that it doesnt matter where I cut just that i can do it. If they understood my motives they would check everywhere. They would struggle though as im not taking my trousers off and stripping regularly for some shrink to check me. I have hard enough time letting them touch my arms.

Mine is a little strange. I punch myself in the head, hard. I have actually given myself bruises and made myself bleed this way. The convenient thing about it is that I can say that someone else did it to me in a fight. I have never heard of another person who does it this way. I started it when I was about 10 and I got mad at a video game, after the reaction I discovered it was a good outlet and now I do it whenever I'm in a private place and I'm very mad at myself.

I also used to have episodes where I starve myelf than binge.

And when I cut myself, I did it on my stomach.

I had anorexia in my teens/early 20's, not all the time just during periods of stress, exams, starting a new job etc. It passed, I think I grew out of it, but there's still the temptation there at the back of my mind, when I'm stressed, to use it as a means of feeling a sense of control.

Do this myself, and punch face and body also. I remember back when I still lived with my mother and I was very thin, I did it so hard I could barely bend. I am lucky I am ok as I used to punch my spine.

I didn't take my medication for about two weeks initially in hospital. Ah, the wonderfulness of fake-swallowing pills.

I still have some degree of hydrophobia from my association with it and pills/overdoses.

That's where I cut. Harder to find.

I was limiting myself to 10 grams of fat or less, and overexerting myself with exercise when I was 19 years old. I was down to 152 pounds at one point--very underweight.

Yes, eating disorders can affect guys, too.

Tim

I still push sowing pins into my hands. I'm surprised my nerves stilll work. THat's probably why I cannot feel much pain or heat with my hands. But cold I CAN feel.