scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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I feel poorly, I want food but can't keep anything down for long, and I didn't manage my daily three mile walk today.

I feel quite miserable.

9,i'm in a good mood

0. Sick, tired, and completely worthless. Having some negative feelings that are really unfair (but true at the same time) and they make me feel like a sh*tty friend anyway.

4. Need some sleep badly...so tired I feel all ungh, so gonna lay down and sleep for a few hours to regenerate

2. Going back to campus was far harder than I ever could have imagined. Drained from the non-stop adrenaline flow that was going while I was there. Glad the arm shakes are done for now. Wondering if I'll ever be completely comfortable returning to campus, this year or twenty years down the line.

3 my chances of going to University are falling down around me - not because of ability (im a top grade student) but because the requirements for the funding require me to have things i do not have....

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I can't really put this mood into a number. I feel okay, but in the background I'm intensely frustrated and nihilistic. I can't f*****g believe that this is life.

6.5
I feel weird

1,
moms not trying to talk brother out of Marines
I will be up till about 1 proof reading and touching up my essay
my teacher is completely nuts.

but on the up side, I am not dead or dieing or in any physical pain

3 Because RedMage isn't online...

0. Guy staying with me does less every day. He buys food. He cooks food. He eats food. He leaves dishes. He leaves ash tray full of two packs worth of cigarette butts.

I ask him to open the f*****g sliding glass door when he smokes so my bedroom doesn't wind up reeking of it (I also smoke out in the front...with the window open and the fan on.) I come out and find the door's shut and he's smoked half a pack, I tell him to open the door in the future, he acts like he forgot. That was understandable the first couple of times. This happens almost daily now.

He constantly "reminds" me of all the s**t he's done for me. Half of which are flat out bulls***. "Yeah, we went through a pack of smokes at the restaurant. Glad I had them." No, I had my pack of Marlboro Reds. I remember that very well. I don't smoke Marlboro Lights unless I'm wasted and I don't have any of my own.

I took out two bags of trash today, cleaned up the living room some, left a bag in his chair. Figured maybe he'd get the hint. No, he said he was confused and then he moved it. Didn't clean a f*****g bit.

I find trash on the floor, at times I'm certain it is his. I b***h about it, he acts like whoever did it is the a**hole. He's never responsible for this s**t. Always somebody else.

If he would go out and get the job he was claiming he was going to get, that would be one thing. He's been saying he would do that for days. He's convinced we're moving in together when I move back to Texas. If this s**t keeps up, he's going to have to find somewhere to live on his own. I try to live alone for a reason, and he's about overstayed his welcome.

Maybe this should have been in the rant thread. I'm about to the point where I want him out, but the f*****g ...I'm angry enough to have to catch myself before using NT as derogatory. The hypocrites around here, who said he could stay with them when he got here, would likely call me an a**hole for kicking him out. Could he stay with them? No, I'm just an a**hole.

ok, done ranting for now. I'll take it to the appropriate thread if I do this again.
edit: think I've done a reasonable job censoring the uncensored stuff that needed to be censored...

6 lonliness blows..

10! I just came across 3 Queens of the Stone Age tracks from the upcoming new album that were leaked over the internet. It's like Christmas morning!

4. I *was* having a very nice MSN conversation, but the person I was talking to went to sleep. It's a shame, as they are one of the few NT's I know how can maintain entertaining conversation.
Also, my new avatar is too big a file to upload.

3...Damn NT pervert situation from last night still bothering me but on happy side I just made a little doll =D