scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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I'm eating an Easter egg, but I have to go and get a shower in a minute and I really can't be arsed. I hate having wet hair.
Although I do find it vaguely amusing that Firefox doesn't recognise the word 'arse' and keeps trying to make me spell with Zs and without Us Maybe I should change to UK English .

7. Little things make me happy.

2 or 3.

Not doing great.

0 because I miss Anubis.

5. Better than yesterday. The guy got the job. Cleared up the phone issue. Some cleaning got done. Still bogged down by last week. Still feel like my life is in a holding pattern until after I graduate and move.

Still beating myself up a bit over missing things that, in hindsight, should have been obvious. That's likely to never change, but one can hope.

8 because people think I live in a desert.

10. I might have made a new friend at school today.

4.

I feel ill, I can't sleep and I have an important lecture at Uni tomorrow (today now, if we're being technical. It's just turned midnight...) starting at 9am. That means i'll have to be up by 7am.

-1

I don't feel quite so craptacular today. I don't think it was the ADs though. A burden has finally been lifted from my shoulders.

10.

10. I am listening to good music.

-2. triggers. the longer I live, the more get created. The more that get created, the more secondary triggers that form. Exponential growth.

How long until everything is enough to cause the bad memories and thoughts to resurface?

Hey, it's good to see you not on -2

5
I think I ate too much again today...and I came across the word 'binge eating disorder'. I admit that this is an issue of mine which I should work on...I'm thinking that probably I would be able to overcome this as I had been able to overcome depression...
I mean, problems like these are always there to some degree but I think we can learn how to handle/cope with them...
I did feel lousy after eating too much and my stomach felt uncomfortable...but somehow I managed to affirm myself including my currently heavy stomach and all the fat in my body...
I think maybe I will create inside me another me who controls my diet in a responsible/authoritative manner....since I am not efficient in controlling or disciplining myself.
So my dialogue with myself will go like "I want to eat that bag of potato chips! I want to have chocolate! I want to have icecream! I want to have instant food! I want to have take out food!" "No, you shall not have potato chips or chocolate or icecream or instant food. Take out food or eating outside are allowed on special occasions. You shall not eat all the time. You shall not eat for comfort. You shall eat vegetables and fruits and exercise regularly."...etc, etc...I hope this doesn't sound too weird...
Anyway, I got a volunteer position which will pay me $20/hour and I'm looking forward to it...The work is related to my special interest and I would like to make some money...
Also, I'm listening to Enya right now...she is awesome...

-2.

3 - I ripped my face open a few days ago and it won't heal because it opens up again whenever I open my mouth more than a centimeter!

-5
Because I only just realised that I have two weeks to do 4 unfinished degree projects. A 3000 word essay, and 3 full photography projects. One of them has no photos but plenty of research, one has photos but no research, and the third is nearly done.
Painful death never looked so good.