3. Feeling "ok," but far from great. Absolutely nobody in my first class today. Around 16 of 40. Nobody expected the class to be full, but this is crazy.
Some memories are getting harder to repress. Smoked for the last time last night (gotta get a job a couple months after I graduate, meaning I need to pass a drug test, not to mention that I need to get on with my life) so I don't have that to fall back on.
Having dreams that are harder to discern from reality now. Realistic, but just as full of gaps as my waking memory, so it isn't as easy to tell. Minor stuff. Text messages I never got, that kind of thing. Nothing as elaborate as events that never happened, at least in the sense of major events or actions past information being received. Feeling like I'm losing my mind a bit. Or a bit more. I guess that's kind of a relative thing.
Really beginning to wonder if I'll be alone for the rest of my life. I'm a bit crazy, that's not a great selling-point. I can only seem to pick up on some non-verbal queues, which, granted, is an improvement from how I have been in the past. The issue is that I usually pick up on them between others, or well after the fact. That's a bit of a problem. Not to mention my uncanny ability to go flying into the "friend zone" in record time. Sorry, what seems like 90%+ of the female populace, my primary goal is not getting into your pants, but don't take that to mean I'm not interested in you.
I'm getting good at going on mini-rants in this thread...