scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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I don't think you quite understand.
A part of my life for the last three years - the most important part - is gone, forever. I don't just feel that I'm alone, I genuinely am, and it's been long enough that I don't remember how to cope with that. I still get up every morning, and I still live my life. I just don't have a reason why, or a reason to try my best, or a reason to smile. I'm still living my life, but at the bare minimum, because right now, I've lost all the other bits.

There's no point in living. -6

I'm having one of those days too. I'm not hungover though...but I may be tomorrow if I can't get through today!

Also trying to think of other times when I worked through being unhappy, but it isn't working today at all.

0.
Negative thoughts taking over, as per usual.

God, we are a sad lot today!

i went and had a shower...that feels like all I will achieve today...

Yeah... I was ok, but suddenly, my heart aches and I feel all heavy with sadness.

My heart is hurting too, and it's not often that that happens...

I'm either heartbroken or having a heart attack...maybe one of them will kill me!

-5. I wish I had not bothered to get up tonight.

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I think I'm being stressed out because school started...
I shouldn't be staying up right now...but staying up at night and listening to soothing music is my solace...because it is quiet and peaceful and I can be by myself...
There is this crippling fear in me...
Which made my emotional state spiral downward...
I try to hang in there...I don't rely on people or look to this world for hope...and I try to hang in there...
The thought that life is meaningless keep comes back...
But I try to hang in there...remember there were good moments in life...
I think the anger that I work hard to put out is surfacing again tonight...
Because I'm thinking why would God let things like tsunami, war, violence, abuse, etc happen?
Why let people be sinners and go through all the horrible things with no place to turn to? And then come to the world and suffer and die for all the sinners...
Why can't God make us not as sinners in the first place? Wouldn't it be better to make the world perfect, peaceful and beautiful?
I believe in God but this part does not make sense to me. Not that it should be important that it doesn't make sense to me.
But then, it's the only thing I can hold on to. I've got nothing else. I wish I had something else but I've got none.
Life is tiring....
I'm a weary traveller...
But the thing is, time seems to go by very quickly...So hang in there...be patient...don't be a slave of beauty and dreams...
It's OK if you don't achieve them...survive...continue...go on...exist...continue to exist...hang in there..

3. Can't sleep.

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10

Graelwyn is a great mood elvator.

Ditto.

5
I finally found out the reason my arm hurts and it can be fixed.
My broody hen hatched a chick today so I can't wait to go see the other 8 chicks hatch tomorrow.

10. I don't have a stomach ache, any more and my appetite has come back. I think I'll have a couple slices of homemade bread.

3.5
Someone just knocked on the door but I won't answer it.
I hope they go away.