scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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-3. We just came back from putting Tom down. Mom's upstairs crying, and I'm down here burying my emotions. Fun, fun. He got sick just before the end too.
Sh*t, I'm crying again. Today sucks.

I'm sorry about your Tom. Sootica (Flo's sister) had to be put down in January because she had cancer. I didn't get to say goodbye because I was in an exam and thought she was just going to have an operation and then be OK.
I cried a lot as well so I know how sh*t it is.
There isn't really anything I can say to make it better, but I am sorry about your loss. It is very sad.

I agree...

5
Finally dropped some of the extra pounds...have a few more to go...
I think I do much well with a routine...I don't need a strict and meticulous routine, but I think it helps if I have a place to go every morning at the same time...It's been a week since school started and I have adjusted to the rhythm...it's my first weekend and I woke up at 10AM instead of 7AM and I feel a little lost...I think I strive on a set routine that repeats itself everyday...
So...how to spend today in a meaningful way...I think I should work out, since I haven't been able to find the time for it since school started...and I think I will read some articles that I should be reading...take the dance class that I haven't been able to take since school started...

6
Flo is next to me puring.
But it's really hot and my veins look funny.

2.
Not had enough sleep. Got cramps. Yuck.

3. Got the RSVP for the graduation ceremony in late. Stressed about that, though my parents said not to worry. Alone, no big deal, but on top of everything else I'm really stressed out right now.

4. Managed to bury negative emotions (which means they'll burst out later at the most inconvient time) and not thinking about it.

5. Managed to cook rice and vegetables without breaking anything. And the result is edible.

10. I love ambient music, it is the best.

2. I keep realizing that leaving my apartment has gotten more and more difficult as of late. I never really enjoyed it, but I could sorta manage. Now, I have things I want to do, want to get a pair of shoes, want to get a free comic book (It is free comic book day, check with your local dealer if they're participating), maybe even go by the hookah bar and just smoke a bit and listen to music. I need to pick up a cap and gown. I just feel like lying on my bed and mindlessly watching television and browsing here like I have most days for the past month. (Nothing against this site...I just want to do other things as well.)

I feel like that too at the moment.
Although it's probably my social anxiety with me, I feel like this most of the time.

3. Need sleep very badly and for some reason the muscles in my neck are totally stiff and sore. I ache. It is my bday in just over 3 hours....or 7 if one goes on my time of birth, but it wont be any different to any other day as I will be alone here as usual for it.

2ish.

My illness is starting to recede, which is nice as it means I can actually breathe without having to put in too much effort.

On the downside, I have to return to Uni on Monday, at which point I will doubtless be introduced to a 'friends' new boyfriend (incidentally, I have had the misfortune to meet the arrogant, disrespectful and cocky little scrote before. Not a good time...) and I shall be expected to act all happy and unflappable in a situation where I have to watch the girl who I once had really strong feelings for (who then promptly messed me about) be all lovey-dovey with someone I can't stand. To top it all, it'll be in a 'social situation'. I think as far as they are concerned, I shall remain ill.

Anyway, that now makes...all five of my friends in relationships. I feel like the last item on a shop shelf, which someone only picks up because they feel sorry for it being left there.

I don't know why I bother.

4. because it`s a good film on TV now, and i have gotten alot done on a car in Photoshop today.

But it was a -6. earlier today, because we had just found out that a dear friend of my dad died, she lived in the states though and my dad was really sad, and that made me really sad. R.I.P Donna..

5. Pretty neutral. One of the benefits I've realized about having someone live with me that doesn't have the same kind of issues I do. He's persistent enough to haul me out. As such, I got a free comic book, I found the rubber clogs I wanted (and for a measly $15.00!), and I got an energy drink that I like. Objects not being enough to make me feel amazing, I'm not doing fantastic, but I feel like I accomplished something today....even if it took someone else helping me to do it.

Hah, wow, realized I'm almost a bit hyper right now. I think it is the combination of the energy drink and the new shoes. Not something I'd mention to anyone around where I live, they'd probably start to question my sexuality.

5 may drop soon... don't know why