SOunds like me during the first years of high school, what kept me motivated was wanting a better life for myself. If you have a better life you may be able to follow your interests more because you will have more recources and possibly, time, but that depends on what you want to acomplish in life I suppose we are all different.
Dont give up man.
BTW... how old are ya, just wondered if u were in high school, if so then even tho we are less then 10 years apart undoubtedly, we may be very similar.
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DX'ed with HFA as a child. However this was in 1987 and I am certain had I been DX'ed a few years later I would have been DX'ed with AS instead.