Sick of people casually scolding me for wanting some of the things they take for granted in life, often in the third person, and then moving on, leaving me to waste my time brooding on my guilt, the only way for me to get rid of it being to give up for good on everything I want, and knowing I'll have to act cordial to them the next time I interact with them, because I'll be the one starting the conflict otherwise. I can't win, and, if this were brought to their attention, they'd only laugh at me even more and practise this game more, too, only for the lulz.
Someone very bright wrote:
Die reinste Freude ist die Schadenfreude.
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The red lake has been forgotten. A dust devil stuns you long enough to shroud forever those last shards of wisdom. The breeze rocking this forlorn wasteland whispers in your ears, “Não resta mais que uma sombra”.