Does anyone else feel like they're never good enough?

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Yep - it's a fairly constant struggle.

I get this way when things don't turn out the way I expect. I may put all my energy into something, trying to make sure how I don't come off as and trying to make sure there are no misunderstandings and bam someone still misinterprets me. It's like I did all that work for nothing. Then I tell myself, "Look, people are going to misjudge you, not everyone is going to like you, some people would rather judge you before they get to know you and it's their loss. There are lot of other people out there you can talk to and won't judge you and will find you likable and enjoy what you say to them. There are plenty of fish in the sea."

Even in real life if I do something and someone still didn't like it, I feel I am not good enough. I felt this way in my last relationship with my boyfriend. I felt I was never good enough because he always found something to criticize or the time I left him some oatmeal in the kettle to be nice because I was thinking of him, he saw it and complained about it saying I am so self centered because "there was barely any" and it was only a bowl left. But he just liked having a huge bowl of it and because there wasn't enough to fill his big bowl, he said there was barely any.

I think to feel good enough is to have people be happy with what you give them, what you offer, what you do than be all critical because and then you feel like giving up. That is how I feel sometimes and I felt that way with my boyfriend all the time. I quit trying to please people years ago because I discovered someone will always judge me and not like me and if someone thinks I am whatever, so what, they will not change their mind no matter what I do.

My life in a nutshell.

The most frustrating thing for me was when you get along really well with someone of the opposite gender and the click is there, only to be rejected when you ask that person on a date. Not because the personalities do not match up but simply because you are not good enough to them, to me because I have AS I am reduced to just friend material to the vast majority of the NT women. The whole notion that people are looking for their perfect princesses or knight in shining armour frustrates me, they ignore all the good points and can only see the negatives and judge you based on that. You get no chance to prove yourself and blossom as a person.

These kind of rejections get more and more painful, frustrating and disappointing every time they happen. Like Sisyphus rolling his boulder up the hill time after time again. Sometimes it just gets to the point where you want to give up because each rejection propels you into another potential depression. I hate being seen as second rate by most people simply because they do not give me the chance to shine. I hope one day I will meet a girl with AS who understands me and will accept me for who I am just as I will accept who she is.

I felt that way for the longest time. Never felt I was good enough, and terrified of making mistakes, which would make people see me as more screwed up than I already was, or so I felt. I took some time to truly think about it though. NTs are quite capable of making some really big mistakes; I've seen some truly childish acts first hand that I've never seen anyone on the spectrum do. I realized they had no right to treat me like that when they are perfectly capable of falling flat on their faces themselves.
My small self-worth grew three sizes that day.

I've stumbled a bit since then (who doesn't?), but on the whole my outlook on life has improved greatly, and it's refreshing not to care as much about what people think.

I felt that way for the longest time. Never felt I was good enough, and terrified of making mistakes, which would make people see me as more screwed up than I already was, or so I felt. I took some time to truly think about it though. NTs are quite capable of making some really big mistakes; I've seen some truly childish acts first hand that I've never seen anyone on the spectrum do. I realized they had no right to treat me like that when they are perfectly capable of falling flat on their faces themselves.
My small self-worth grew three sizes that day.

I've stumbled a bit since then (who doesn't?), but on the whole my outlook on life has improved greatly, and it's refreshing not to care as much about what people think.

That's good to hear. I hope to get where you're at someday!

I'm surprised there's not more insensitive blunt comments if this is an AS forum. Or did I get diagnosed with the wrong syndrome?

i feel incompetent sometimes, i feel bad that i can't do everything my sister can or my friend Rachel.

I certainly feel like this. Even in the areas that i'm not "too bad" the slightest mistake can be devastating for me.

Definitely.

^This.

Same here. One mistake can and will ruin my day, especially if I wasn't feeling so hot before that.

I don't know if feeling you can't do anything right is a common symptom of ASD, but either way, my parents certainly helped to reinforce it.

Every time I forget to feel that way, there are plenty of people who remind me.

I have participated a great many therapeutic courses in my time, bodymind among others, and it seems to be universal:
People feel, that they´re not good enough!
- whether it is just our western culture as it is, or if it happens through any kind of socializtion.