Weird and confusing thing on schooltrip.

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But how can it be a choice when you are not aware of it?

Holy mother of everything f*****g GREAT in this world!

I just had the most open conversation in my whole entire life with Chloé.




I didn't interpret Chloé wrong.




It comes to this; she thinks i'm absolutely wonderful because of certain traits i have.
She places me above her usual friends and kind of 'next to' her boyfriend.
She literally said (translated): 'Adrian, honestly, if i wouldn't have a boyfriend, i could fall in love with you and i mean it.'
She looks at me as a seriously good friend and i can talk really honest and open with her.
She told me things she's NEVER told anyone before.
And the funny thing is, i trust her completely, that's the first time this has happened to me.

I feel like i'm the happiest man alive, i've got a great friend and she gives me an enormous amount of self-esteem.
Just the thought that she, the girl of which i think is a diamond, thinks that i'm the diamond gives me enormous shivers down my spine.

She said that in Paris, she constantly wanted to seduce me.
She almost wanted to break up with her boyfriend after Paris because she felt really confused and guilty.
When i honestly told her, that if i ever get the chance i'll go after her, she replied that i should.
Next, she said i can hope, but as long as it doesn't "eat me up" or ruins our relationship.


f**k man, even if we never get a relationship, i'll still have one of the most wonderful girls i know as a very close friend.





I'm sorry for the suckyness of this post but it's 0:17AM, i've just talked with Chloé for the past 2h and i'm dead tired.
EDIT: Now it's 2:46AM and i can't f*****g sleep.
I've been in bed for the past 2 and a half hours and i JUST CAN'T SLEEP, i gave up and now i'm downstairs reading this.
And school's starting in +- 5h
Chloé's constantly racing through my mind.

You shot it and you scored it!

*quickly changes to First Round MIDI of Who Wants to Be a Millionaire? for cool, upbeat effect*

I hope you two enjoy your company for years to come!

This chapter is closed.


Had a good talk with Chloé last evening and it comes to this:
She could/does love me but can't leave her boyfriend because she can't just stop a year long relationship for a feeling.
The boyfriend doesn't treat her very well since the last 3 months but she is too stubborn to give up on it that fast.
She still sees me as a very good friend though.
I had a mental breakdown after this for about 20m where i cried for the first time in 6years.
After that, everything went really smooth though, really weird.

Today was a bit awkward but i hope that'll get over fast.

She needs to make up her mind. It is not fair on ethier of you.

Oh God...

Good lord, you're teenagers. She should dump the guy if she's no longer having fun with him and have some fun with you...

I'm not sure i get your expression correctly. (classic under-the-thumb nice guy) (English isn't my native language)

The strange thing is, i feel really good today, a bit weirded out at school but really fine.
Like i could instantly accept the idea of Chloé as a better-then-usual friend but not more than that.

@wendytheweird, i'm sorry but i hate things like that.
It's not because we're 17 we can do whatever the f**k we like, socially/sexually, just because we're 17.
That kind of mentality creates underage sluts and teenage moms imho.

I'm not saying she should just start f*****g whoever she feels like, I'm saying if he is not treating her well, she should dump him and find someone to have fun with. ANd I'll tell you a little secret: you can have fun without having sex!! ! Having sex was NOT what I meant by my post, you're the one w/ the problem for taking it that way.

If he's not treating her well, she should dump him. Just because they've been dating for a year means nothing, if she's been having problems for 3 months. That's 1/4 of the time they've been together! It's not like they're married with kids and have good reason to keep working on their relationship.

I didn't take it sexually.
And i'm sorry if i offended you, after thinking about it, you're right about what you said.

I'd love it if she'd she it your way but i'm not the person to bring this to her attention.



Maybe i'm being 'run over' or even taken advantage of, yes, but i wouldn't know what to do otherwise.