Heres a little story...

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Heres a little story 'bout a mans head.

Once upon a time, there was a man who was contented in his lack of emotion. He sat around doing his normal thing, deriving inspiration from the various task and entertainment he allowed himself. One day he began speaking with a girl. For three whole weeks he spoke to this girl as a friend, till his mom informed him he was spending an unholy amount of time in conversation with her. So, being direct, he asked her what her intentions were. Sure enough, they were romantic to some extent.

So now, after many years of not searching, nor yearning, a girlfriend was magically dropped into his lap. Unfortunately, she was 2800 miles away. So after he realized she was pursuing him he decided it wouldn't be very fun for her if he continued to shun his emotions and decided to let some of the old buggers surface again.

Then after what could be best described as a month of 'promises' he acquired a plane ticket and was intent on going to meet this girl in person and be with her for quite some time. For the first three weeks after the ticket was bought everything was fine. They continued speaking, laughing, talking and enjoying the others mind as often as they could. And the man found himself feeling something for a women he hadn't felt before.

Then, three days before he was scheduled to depart, what he had expected happened. He got a call saying they should just be friends. He was fun with this idea as it was to be expected. Sadly, his body was not. He was wracked with such powerful stomach pains he had to see a doctor, where he acquired a regiment of pills to mitigate the pain.

Now he's here, in the state with her, they've not spoken to each other in person other then the first night. Where they slept in the same bed, feeling each others warmth and tasting what could of been.

Now he's got all of his emotions back and has no idea how to proceed. He can't stuff them all back into the box they we're in as they've grown and become more prevalent. What is a man who can't get past a woman to do?

I dunno. When in a sort of similar boat to a milder degree (though I never bought a plane ticket- yeah, I'm stupid, long story, moving on), I basically cried for quite awhile. As in, a month or two. ((It happened right around christmas, too. Talk about losing your holiday spirit.)) Then looked for a rebound, found none, and proceeded to immerse myself in male platonic friends who regarded me as their male platonic friend, until I kinda coasted out of the worst of the sting. I still kinda cringe to think about it, though.

Anyway, if you get into a relationship within three months (that's a rough estimate) of this woman putting your heart in a blender, examine your motives and the motives of the other person VERY CAREFULLY. Rebounds can really, really suck! ((My mom had two, both of who were really, really sucky. I know. I've seen this.)) But emotions can be an OK thing. You may gravitate back to equilibrium, or you may actually find that feeling things is something you can't stop doing. Emotions aren't all bad; they're just not all good, and sometimes that can tip the scales in your judgement of them. Anyway I have no advice beyond that save for take care of yourself, this woman wasn't the be-all, end-all of women, and she's not worth doing yourself any damage over.

I find it highly amusing you used the word Equilibrium. I discovered Yeats through that film, and the poem recited in the church has brought me much solace. Curious how things work out. Good advice.